This blog is a place to discuss whatever comes up. It will include health and nutrition, since I am currently studying to become a health coach; it will cover all the questions and thoughts on spirituality that plague us all in our daily lives; some parenting issues may get brought up and of course I will talk about all the things I love in the world i.e. books, products, photography, food, etc. I feel like I am a pretty well-rounded soul with lots of interests and really, I think we all are. We also change and evolve over our lifetime so what you are interested in today can certainly change in a month or a year.
Today I need to discuss an issue I keep facing in my life. Maybe all of you can shed some light on this for me. I want this to be a forum where we can discuss and help each other out. It is new right now and I know sometimes it is intimidating to share but please do! There is no one else who thinks just like you do, who will say something exactly like you or who has had the exact same experiences. So share, share, share! What you say here may be just the a-ha someone else needed to hear, which is exactly why I want to write it in the first place.
Many times we can’t solve the issues we have because we are too deep in it and can’t see it clearly or it has been around so long that we feel it can’t change. I KNOW everything can change and change is constant. So what is coming up for me is that if something is sticking around in my life when it does not serve me then I am bringing it on myself. But how is the question???
So here is the deal: I have a pattern that rears its ugly head whenever it pleases. I would bet money many of you experience something similar. It seems that whenever I get on a “roll” with something in my life; whether it be a consistent exercise program, staying focused at work, having a balanced life in general; right when I get comfortable in it ***BAM!!!*** the Universe gives me a smack down that is usually some sort of physical ailment like a migraine, the last few weeks the flu, tendonitis in my elbow or some sort of ache or pain. You all know about this from working out. You get in the flow and you hurt yourself and then you can’t work out for weeks and have to start all over again. Right? Why does this happen? I am not sure I buy into the whole idea that we are here to be tested. I don’t think so. I think we are here to remember where we came from, to learn, to create and to love. We are here to have a joy-filled life so why the constant speed bumps? What do you think?
I am writing this in a state of frustration, confusion and deep thought because I am experiencing this phenomena now… right this very second. I figured why not write about it because maybe something I say or something someone else comments will help us all to get a handle on this. I personally am not doing too well with it. In fact, I am a bit angry that it has happened again when I am doing non-stop work on bettering myself and avoiding the pitfalls. Is this just life? My gut tells me it is something I need to look at, something more. Am I self-sabotaging because of a fear of success, for instance? Do I have a wrecked immune system from my childhood that can not handle much over stimulation? Am I simply out of balance and this is how I get back in balance?
All I know is that over the last month I was feeling so good and feeling like I was balanced and in the “flow”. I was even thinking that maybe I finally found my calling to write because it felt so good to do it (who knew!?). I was taking good care of myself and doing everything right: good sleep, eating healthy, exercising, reducing stress, and avoiding germs (well sort of). Then I got the flu, had it for a week, got back to work, and had a relapse and had to go on antibiotics (which I hate to use). Ugh! So now I will dig deeper to see if there is anything that needs to be worked on that might be causing this pattern to hold onto me. I do know that our negative, buried emotions manifest in dis-ease. Truly. Science has now proven the mind-body connection. Maybe this is my time not only for green juice and detoxing of my physical body but also my hidden thoughts and feelings I am not addressing. Hmmm….
This whole thing called life and being a spiritual being in a human body is not easy. We know so little about how it all works. All I do know for sure is that when I listen to my intuition, my gut, I can usually get a good handle on it. So there is something to it. I also listen to my body. There is an amazing book by Louise Hay, a woman you must get to know, called You Can Heal Your Life. It discusses how our emotions manifest in our bodies. For instance, influenza is a result of “a response to mass negativity and beliefs”, while respiratory ailments manifest because of “fear of taking life in fully”. There are Eastern traditions that subscribe to this way of thinking, especially Ayurveda. It does make sense to me. This is something to look at.
So with all that being said, I would love to hear how this shows itself in your life and how you handle it. Life is for sure a long quest that I believe becomes more interesting when you unwrap it and look inside. My recent illness could simply be because I touched the wrong germ but it could mean something entirely different. Don’t you want to know?
“Show up, tune in, be real, enjoy the ride”